Thank you all for your prayers and validation that we all struggle in some way. I continue to struggle with anxiety and I have so much to be thankful for. And yet, I am still not connected to my eldest but it has broken through in the tiniest ways. Please help me to continue to be a kind and good person every day and for this to move me forward in life, appreciating and feeling goodness within myself. Help me to trust those that I love again and to be seen as who I truly am inside. The only way I can think of to do this is to continue being gentle, kind and encouraging. I hope that can be enough because any more is always misunderstood and risk taking. Sometimes I am actually afraid of engaging too much. Help me to find my way.