Dear God, Today I have noticed, when a look at it, my parents are getting old now. My papa is going to be 60 this coming October 31st, and I notice he had lost an amount of weight in him, and that he had high blood pressure of 140/100, and we suspect that he may be Diabetic. While my mama always complains getting very tired easily at the age of 53, becoming 54 this October 5th. I know I'm a lazy kid but I wish I could help them too, sometimes, I wish that I can easily pass my board exams for just 1 take so that I can began working and help them at least, financially so that I will take care of things and the others that they worked hard for so many years and let them just enjoy the remaining years of their lives.

Dear God, I am a sad person. Wanting to take my own steps seem to be a sin to my parents. Why? Where did I go wrong? what I can only see is that I'm a following a dream. I wanted to do my business so why is it wrong for them? at least I'm doing something for myself, at least I'm not asking money from them, I am not even asking any help from them. So why are they angry? I don't see that I'm wrong. I am only doing this for myself why can't they understand that? I am willing to risk my own money for the 1st place that's how they can determine that I really wanted to do this, to run my own business, however small it is. Why can't they approve of it, I can't see anything wrong with it. I love my work, I love what I'm doing, its the 1st time that I did something for myself that I love, this is the 1st time that I pampered myself, to indulge myself to something which is quite rewarding too even how small the income it may get, I am happy but I am also asking for a good profit it doesn't go away from my wishes that I want to gain an amount of money. but I want them to understand that what I'm doing is what I love doing, someday I want to build my own establishment and this is just my foundation. so why would they keep me away from that humble ambition? this really makes me sad. and disappointed that they do not approve of it. I feel rather lonely because of what they are doing its like, there's no one there to support me. Its like the feeling that I'm unloved. it hurts. I've been hurt a lot, a have lost my real parents a long time and I can't even see them, especially my real father whom I never get a chance to meet in person, I even lost a person that I love because I have let go of him, I let go of him so that I won't continue hurting myself, I'm hopelessly in love with him and I only see a downside and that I'm not happy with the relationship anymore, and we don't even have a relationship at the first place I think I was just blinded by love. I can only see one side. and believe me I based through actions, and I only want to quit dreaming of him because it will only make things worse, so what I did was let go as its the only right thing that I can see so far. God, please help me, I am really sad right now, feel my heart and look unto it and you will see why.

Dear God, Please Help me with my small humble business. I am asking for your help coz I know I can't do it alone. Please help me get benefits and increase my sales so as to make a gain out of the loss I had from my first bazaar encounter, I know it wasn't perfect and I put all my efforts to succeed my dream event to become a reality. I pursued hard to accomplish that even if I have nothing much, and I am not that rich or afford such a luxury, I only tried to pursue a dream. It wasn't easy and you know it, God, you saw it and you felt what I was feelings back then, I was stressed and at the same time I had conflicting problems with my Mom. I know that they don't really want this but for me this is what I wanted, this is what I needed to do for my own happiness, I don't have much really, for me I had so many loss but I am only trying to see as much as clearly what I had to maintain that balance in myself. and I don't mean loss because of money loss, loss because I'm so far away from my friends, loss because I failed a loved one, loss because my real parents wasn't here with me to guide me. I had more loss on that intimacy, which money cannot afford me to buy. So somehow, I am trying to make this up for myself, that even through this small business of mine, I can make myself happy because I followed a dream even if others perceived it differently. Help me God, help me to make this event successful for me, I know a lot of people prayed and prayed for success, money and ambition, surely you won't answer most of those material things but you know me, I am only a helpless young lady who is trying her hardest to earn a living so as not to be so much dependable with my adopted parents. I made this for myself that someday whatever I brought about in myself right here on this time being I can nurture it so that I can be the person I want to be in the future. I am praying for good sales. I also needed that money. Amen.

Dear God, lately I've been thinking a lot about him. I was thinking back then, I thought he didn't love me. Back then, before I even met him, I fell in love with someone, and he broke my heart, and I was so afraid of falling in love with the wrong person or getting myself hurt again, I was trying to run away from love, I thought now that probably because I was trying so hard to run away from it and trying to resist it, that I cannot see the fact anymore of what is real and what is not, or maybe he also did fell in love but I was so blind not to see that. but I wasn't so sure of how he felt about me, he never said a word or through his actions alone are even barely, I was only following my doubtful heart. I came to a thought that I want him to prove to me something. I wanted him to fight for me, I want him to struggle to catch me, to run after me and secure me safely that I won't be able to get hurt again but in the end I still end up hurting myself in the process. I never really knew how he felt to me back then, I got discouraged so I turned my back and tried to move on, never really seeing that maybe he even did love me, coz somehow something in my gut was telling me that I should continue loving him and something inside of me believed that he loves me. I can feel it. Let me know God, are the choices I made, correct? If he does really love me, then God I am praying to you, please lend him your strength, lend him your wisdom, lend him the right actions so he will do the rightful thing a man would do for a woman in the name of love. Help him by proving to me, to say to me the words my ears had been searching to hear so that I can prove to myself and my friends that I am not only assuming things but it is a fact that what I felt was real, that he loves me, that he and I did share that special connection. I love him, God. Please don't make me feel wrong, please correct the things that are wrong.

God, I watched Love & other drugs today. Although its not that close to my love story but what only connects me to that movie is that love. It was only then I realized even meaningfully the feelings that I have for someone, as I was deeply moved through the saying of Jamie Randall before the credits roll, that Sometimes the things you want the most don't happen and what you least expect happens. I don't know - you meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet one person and your life is changed forever.

That was it, enough for me to realize that after all those years trying to move on, I still do really love the same man for the past 3 years of my life, it was just hiding inside me all those times that I'm trying to break away from it, all those times that I'm trying to run away from it, all those times I'm trying the hardest that I can to move on and I still find myself in love with that same man all over again.

I ask Why? if you do have any reasons why do I keep doing this, why do I kept loving him? If he's not really meant for me, why do I seem like I'm still waiting? waiting for a sign? waiting for something that might be impossible? Why do I feel that I need to continue to love him even though reason is trying to reason out on me why I shouldn't. Do you have any plans? or am I just fooling myself? Oh, help me, God. It may seem to sound selfish for me to say this things but I love him. I'm still deeply in love with him.

Dear God, help me understand my adopted mother's mind. As I cannot understand her anymore. Give me the peace of mind and broader understanding of her behavior, as I am getting hurt with her actions towards me. I don't know why she's being this way towards me but I pray for her also for a peace of mind, I know I have sinned both to you and her, you know what happened. I'm sorry but I am just a weak human being, easily swayed by my own emotions. I know I'm mad at her even I shouldn't be, and I keep trying to push away those feelings aside but I'm perished with it. God Please help me. Please make me understand, please take away this bad emotions.

Dear God, please give me a peace of mind and heal a heart that's broken and aching. Please lend me your ear so you may listen to my heart of what it's feeling, as I too am totally confused of what I really feel, that deep seated feeling that's seem to bring me down to a dark place where I can only hear myself crying, and self-pitying. I don't want to lose sight of the gifts you've given me but I'm slowly fading to this deep seated place, where there's anger, hatred, and all hurt feelings, and what is only left of me is the hope that someday everything will be resolved by YOU. I'm giving my full trust that your the only one who could help me, without it, its as if all my life has ended, or else I'll become bitter. I am, and slowly it occurs to me that I'm becoming bitter, and I don't want that to happen, please pull me away from all that negativism. and please. PLEASE help me what to do with someone I find that I'm still fascinated with,with an unknown reason why I have this unimaginable heights of affections for that person, show me what to do, whisper me the right words and teach me the right actions. I feel like I'm beginning to be hopelessly frustrated with all my heart's desire. You know my heart, and you know it by heart, help me lord, I can't do this alone.