I feel like I'm losing my mind, I need you lord God the father and holy spirit. I've prayed, and prayed for another child and you granted me my prayer and for that I am eternally grateful. I just wish I wouldn't stress so much over this pregnancy, being 40 and pregnant is scary. So many risks and complications.....I have an ultrasound next week which terrifies me as it checks for fetal abnormalities such as Down's syndrome and other chromosomal disorders. I just want everything to be ok, I just want to enjoy this pregnancy and not worry for at least a few weeks. All I want is a normal, healthy baby without too many complications. So far I have been so blessed, I just need your grace and strength and guidance through this path you have chosen for me. Please keep me from being weak and let me find the strength I need to overcome these times of weakness.

I am 40 years old and just found out I'm pregnant. My youngest daughter is going to be 19 in a few weeks and being pregnant now is terrifying. I want this baby more than anything, I want to be able to have a good pregnancy without too many complications and for my blessing to be healthy. Please pray God gives me strength to get through this and that this little baby is born healthy.

Still struggling with the inner turmoil of my thoughts...I need to find strength to get passed the sadness that lingers there so that I may find happiness. I pray with all my heart and soul that soon my luck will change and I can get what I need to make my family whole again, especially a place to live, I've been looking but no success yet. I need to have money to by food, and most of all just to survive, I'm tired of worrying about my finances and not having enough, I'm tired of working all the time and not being able to make ends meet or have enough to provide for my children who I need with me. I pray that my daughter's will understand one day how much I love them and the sacrifices I had to make. It tears me apart, I don't want to hurt anymore.

I never ask for anything but strength and guidance, but now I need more...I've learned since my near death that God will only give us what we need not what we want. But right now I need to find an affordable and larger apartment or house for myself and my children, I need the strength to continue going to work. I need to find my way to financial stability and as a mother to be the best I can be for my children. To learn to love myself, and be free to be happy despite my years of depression. Most of all I need to find closure from a very difficult end of a horrible relationship...I need my divorce. I also need to stop trying to find the reason why my ex had an affair and then left me for a younger woman. I'm scared for the day I go to court for my divorce that my ex will get everything he took from me, he left me with nothing, he's not working right now so that he doesn't have to pay me what he owes me, the money he took from our bank account while I was in the hospital. I need strength to get through this.....The bottom line is I just want to find PEACE within this broken heart and mind of mine. Sorry if this was long...I had a lot to get off my chest hopefully prayer will bring me the peace I seek.