I never ask for anything but strength and guidance, but now I need more...I've learned since my near death that God will only give us what we need not what we want. But right now I need to find an affordable and larger apartment or house for myself and my children, I need the strength to continue going to work. I need to find my way to financial stability and as a mother to be the best I can be for my children. To learn to love myself, and be free to be happy despite my years of depression. Most of all I need to find closure from a very difficult end of a horrible relationship...I need my divorce. I also need to stop trying to find the reason why my ex had an affair and then left me for a younger woman. I'm scared for the day I go to court for my divorce that my ex will get everything he took from me, he left me with nothing, he's not working right now so that he doesn't have to pay me what he owes me, the money he took from our bank account while I was in the hospital. I need strength to get through this.....The bottom line is I just want to find PEACE within this broken heart and mind of mine. Sorry if this was long...I had a lot to get off my chest hopefully prayer will bring me the peace I seek.