I have made many mistakes and poor choices in my life, most of them center around relationships with men, that I have spent years with throughout my life. I really feel as though I don't need a man in my life for any single thing.
I will have to leave someone that I once loved deeply, due to an serious alcohol problem and now, nine long years later, constant battles with one another. I feel great sadness and
regret for the choices I have made, and I would appreciate your prayers: for me to keep a cool demeanor, and stand by my decision to move forward into a fresh start. I will leave behind a lost soul, who may very well die without me.
I can no longer stand to be around him. Please pray for him as well. That God sends him a moment of clarity, where he will see that he doesn't have to continue to live in the past, but can also start anew, and find his rightful place in this world. August is also the month, when 8 years ago I lost my son, Justin. It's a very bad time for me emotionally and I feel I will never truly recover from my loss. I lost him to an addition of another kind, heroin.
Addictions are of the devil, this I know with all of my heart. They destroy everyone in their paths, leaving only pain, and remorse in their wake. I pray for all the sick souls who need God's help, but don't; KNOW our Lord. How lonely and empty their hearts and souls must be! I cannot imagine having to go through this life without God. I know that he loves me, no matter what I have done, and that he gives me a new start everyday when I open my eyes to each new day.
My days have been especially trying and I struggle to get up in the morning and get through my work. I still wear a smile on my face, because In my profession, people come into the office hurting from their own problems. I could go on, but God knows what to do, Please take a moment and ask Him to help me in whatever ways He sees fit. Thank you my dear brothers and sisters. I wish you all peace! Amen <3