I certainly do understand how you may be feeling, Samantha. If you are in a safe area to get out ad take a ten minute walk, that will give you a few minutes to have a few minutes to get fresh air and allow your toddler to run some of that energy off, going to the library to look for books for both of you will be a down time treat. Calling the mental helplines will definitely guide you to get you settled with exercises for you to decompose. I am 12 days behind reading this but I pray the Lord has responded to your cry and help has come. Issues like this He isn't slow in getting to you to get you help. May the prayers you cry out to Him are heard and they are quickly resolved. May your peace be restored and forever lasting from this point on. No weapon formed against you shall prosper and God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of peace, joy and a sound mind. You are more than a conqueror and resisting the devil and calling on Jesus you have victory in all of your matters. If you would Samantha, read and speak those words everyday in Psalm 91. Doing so, you have put a hedge of protection around you, your child, your home. The book of Psalms is a great book of prayers too. These are Gods Words, give them to Him and He will surely respond. It is my hope that you are doing better. To God be the glory, Through Christ Jesus...Amen