I ask for guidance and help with this depression I been feeling. I've never had thoughts since 2017 of wanting to die but I find now 7m after my daughter was born 3yrs after my son I feel those thoughts coming back and I can't help these feelings like just wanting to give up, like no matter how hard I try I'm not getting anywhere. I get so angry at my toddler it's not normal I need help and all the prayers of understanding of how to nuture his high energy into something positive m I'm having the hardest time being a single mom on single income ppl constantly asking to borrow money and I believe it's for their own addictions. I finally put my foot down after half a year. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and nothing but a boob to my kids. I'm tired and upset often I never get a break. It's my birthday tomorrow and I don't want anything, I feel I don't deserve anything nice. I've never had anything nice growing up even as a young adult my toxic bf had all the nice things and now my toddler just ruins everything he touches so what's the point of having anything nice done for me or anything. I give and I give and I get nothing but stress and tourmoil. I need an outlet for this grief losing my sister bestfriend and ending a 11yr relation all at once was never easy. Life has been nothing b up to a struggle and I'm beginning to hate myself especially for these to houghts. My babies are my pride and joys.

Good day prayer warriors. 🙏
Now I have been a single mother for over 26months now. I tried so many times to make it work with the baby's father. I tried so hard I'm having a 2nd baby due in October. I'm so blessed but was really worried at first if this baby will be alive and healthy when she arrives. As I had bad morning sickness up until just recently. Also about doing it alone, the only person I have and trust to watch my boy is my mother. So I will be having the baby alone. The dad "tries" to come around or call. But is filled with so much excuses he's almost useless. I don't like putting him or others down but idk how else to out it. Ever since he started the drugs (meth) he's just not in a good state of mind and has been on the streets for the most part since I kicked him out for bringing his drugs in my home 2yrs ago when Baby was only months old. I haven't been looking for love since I'm expecting again. But I think it found me. This man and I have always had a thing for each other. The timing has never been right, even now I feel silly but also feeling I need love and companionship who doesn't right. He's a very nice man with very strong feelings for me. More than I even realized. He's opened up to me and tells me how he has cancer and doesn't want to do chemo. So I pray that Father God Creator of all things will heal him and let him live so we can have a lifetime together. Even if it doesn't work out that way he is a good man and pray for the best. I'm afraid to love again because how much pain I been through in the name of love. I won't hide my feelings I'll just go with it and that's what he's doing just going with it feeling healthier since he left his gf and is visiting family and his kids. Still making sure to keep in touch with me. Please Jesus have mercy on him so maybe he can be the father my kids need if that's what he wants. I trust in you creator 🙏🙏🙏 I give my all to live my life in kindness acceptance of others to be the role model I need to for my kids and my people. I also pray for my babies father to find a way through you to get where he needs to in life and not be crushed about me loving another man because we all deserve love and he needs to understand I can't keep putting up w his excuses gaslighting narcissistic ways. I need to be happy and he needs help, more than any human can give he's got to help himself.
I believe and trust in you dear God 🙏 Creator of all good things. Please answer my prayers for healing of ALL those that need to be healed after all the first people's children of turtle Island being recovered. This world needs you and your love more than ever. Stand with our people dear God. Amen

Hello prayer warriors. I have extremely bad anxiety and depression from before my boy blessed me to be his mother 18m ago. I come today to help ease my mind of financial woes 🥺 praying that God is on my side 🙏🏽
I had become a single mother almost immediately after Ezekiel was born, realizing his dad was hiding his meth addiction from me, and even pretty sure he was doing it once baby arrived, not even a day old, when he went out for a "smoke" while I lay there in the hospital wondering why he's been gone so long. (I have such a forgiving heart idk why I still allow him around whenever he decides to contact us. ) Anyways I had a job interview Oct 2019, with a company that understood and wanted to help working mothers. I told them baby's only Half a year but I'd love to come to work in the new year, they completely agreed and said they'd contact me in the new year and.... March2020 happened :/ lockdown BB edited my babys 1st birthday 🥺. So yes I applied for the cerb, thinking I qualified because my interview. Now I'm extremely worried about next year since I received an email stating I did not qualify. Now my dad is willing to help.since he went to Indian say school but it's been 2yrs since he started to fill out forms and nothing yet. I'm so worried they cut off baby's monthly money from me it's our only source of ii ncome for him. I'm prepared for the worst but really hurts to think about. I'd feel like a failure of a mother if that happened. With the money that I recieved I got my baby and our every need with it. Since we moved out on our own away from my parents who are practically chain smokers, we couldn't be there any more. But thanks to whom ever took the time to read, god bless you and take care 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽