Today, Samantha, God wants you to know that the world is an abundant place.
So far, everyday of your life you have had enough to survive. Whether it was water, food or shelter, one way or another, you had enough. Why would tomorrow be any different? God has created an abundant world, live in appreciation of that.

This is what God wanted me to know today. Well I feel super anxious and hurt about the housing crisis 😭😥💔 I was in 2ns stage housing for 4 years. I finally found someone to share the rest of my life with and be a father to my children. Yet the world keeps testing us. I got a place in my hometown 1500km away from the place I made home for 20years. I had to choose ... I moved out of the downtown Eastside of Vancouver BC to come to my small hometown. Now they may threaten our situation with the love of my life. We were supposed to find work in the city but.thwre.was no housing. Now he's looking for work but.tjey will threaten it's against policy since hes not on the tenant agreement he has no source of income at the moment but has been busy helping us move and settle in. My children are a handful we moved here to slow down. 🥺 I can't handle these kids.myself anymore my babygirl is almost 2 and calls him dad. Closest thing to a dad they have. I'm praying that God will watch over our family to keep us together. I don't want to do it alone anymore. Parenting is a tough job. I only came for schooling and teach the kids about our culture. Pls don't.let them kick us out for wanting to be a family. As soon as he gets a source of income he will definitely be able to apply as a tenant 🙏🙏🙏 for now he really has nowhere else to go unless it's a couple of communities over :( I'm 💔 worried about it when the move was happening and just prayed everything would be ok. Please.mighty father up above help keep us as a whole family. I need him more.than I thought I needed anyone

My kids have been sick off and on for what seems like months. Please pray for our health and wellness. Along with my mother who always tries to help but gets sick in the process 🥺

I am struggling hard with my emotions. Mainly anger. I do not understand why I feel so much anger. I've dealt with grief more than half my life. But September reminds me of my late sister it would be 4years without her. Going to concerts and pne all remind me of her. I don't like to make excuses but I just don't know how to deal with the anger. I have two babies that need all my life because I'm all they got. Their dad is useless filled with excuses. I'm always blocking him because he never answers. He doesn't even give me an actual number like he'd ever answer. He only calls when he's broke and cries around how he misses us and wishes the best for us. He's an addict god knows if hes actually recovering like he says. But he's not on the streets anymore. Supposedly getting more money from disability. But still can't shell out a dime for his kids. He's never bought them anything in the 3years my boy has been here. And I stupidly believed in him twice and now have a beautiful 10m daughter. I tried to give him the 9m to get his act together and told him I don't want him around if on drugs or in her life. I don't want her to know him just so he can hurt her. My boy just cried for him the other day , but I couldn't even get a hold of him that's how useless he is. :/ I feel so stupid to have loved him and think he'd be a Good father when hes only met my girl a handful of times and visits seasonally since my son. I just wish things were better for all in of us. I wish my kids would have two parents who love them and admire them the way their supposed to. I'm mad at the world and the drugs. At myself for not being able to keep up with housework. I'll forever be hard on myself and don't know how to change it. I guess I fear I'll become a slug and never get anything done and everything will fall apart if I don't push myself. I need to be better I strive to be better. I want my kids to thrive instead of just thrive like how I was raised. This intergenerational trauma is no joke! My parents went to Indian day school and at 60 years only are only living to survive and it's quite sad to think about. All my people going through so much. This world needs to do better! I'm sick of the selfish beings being. I pray the ignorance and hatred stops. With me and with this world we are living.
All my relations 🙌🪶

I ask for guidance and help with this depression I been feeling. I've never had thoughts since 2017 of wanting to die but I find now 7m after my daughter was born 3yrs after my son I feel those thoughts coming back and I can't help these feelings like just wanting to give up, like no matter how hard I try I'm not getting anywhere. I get so angry at my toddler it's not normal I need help and all the prayers of understanding of how to nuture his high energy into something positive m I'm having the hardest time being a single mom on single income ppl constantly asking to borrow money and I believe it's for their own addictions. I finally put my foot down after half a year. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and nothing but a boob to my kids. I'm tired and upset often I never get a break. It's my birthday tomorrow and I don't want anything, I feel I don't deserve anything nice. I've never had anything nice growing up even as a young adult my toxic bf had all the nice things and now my toddler just ruins everything he touches so what's the point of having anything nice done for me or anything. I give and I give and I get nothing but stress and tourmoil. I need an outlet for this grief losing my sister bestfriend and ending a 11yr relation all at once was never easy. Life has been nothing b up to a struggle and I'm beginning to hate myself especially for these to houghts. My babies are my pride and joys.