Pa, I miss You. I miss You everyday. Thank You for giving me another day though I hope that You would just get me outta here. I want to be there with You now. I feel so tired living :( ...Pa, what's the use of staying here if I couldn't get a job? I don't know. I'm confused and lost :'( ...Pa, please carry me. Jesus, please hug me. I need You to guide me and drive my life. I'm so lost Pa :'( .. My heart is crying. Would You not want me to work? Tell me what to do GOD. I don't know what to do. Please let Your plan unfold for me. Pa, I'm dead. I feel like dead :'( Have mercy on me Jesus. Please help me to find a job soon with the company who can really give me a work pass. Please Jesus, I'm begging You. My heart is in anguish right now.. :'( I feel numb but I can feel that my heart is crying. Yes, right now I'm crying. Can't stop the tears from flowing :'( Help me Pa, Holy Spirit and Jesus. Please give me a last chance. Please give it as an advanced Christmas gift. This I ask in Jesus' name. Amen.