Please pray for me. I'm feeling overwhelmed and like nothing matters. I've been praying and praying for years to be healed from depression and I don't hear God. I've spent all my efforts trying to hide my sorrow during the day when I'm at work even though I feel like nothing matters and we all die so what's the point. It's getting harder and harder to pull myself together and keep going. The only reason I'm still here is because I'm afraid of hell. The only reason I didn't get the vaccine is that I'm afraid of hell. I contemplate getting it so at least the rest of my family will stop ostracizing me. I feel like no matter what I do or try, nothing ever changes. I really wish I didn't exist and I was never born.