I'VE BEEN HAVING SOME DIFFICULTY TRYING TO KEEP MY FRIENDS AROUND! EVERY TIME THAT I GET SO CLOSE TO THEM, I TURN AROUND AND LET THEM GO FOR NO REASON AT ALL. MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD WAS KILLED BACK IN 1985 BY A JEALOUS GIRLFRIEND OR EX-GIRLFRIEND, I DON'T REMEMBER. NUT THIS GIRLFRIEND HAD DECIDED TO HIRE TO GUYS TO MURDER MY BEST FRIEND JUST BECAUSE SHE WAS JEALOUS OF THE FACT THAT MY FRIEND HAD THIS GUY, AND SHE DIDN'T. WELL, IT PUT A HOLE IN MY HEART SO-TO-SPEAK BECAUSE I DIDN'T LET ANYBODY COME TO MY HEART. I NEED TO HAVE PRAYERS SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS ANYMORE. I JUST LOST ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS OF ALL, SHE ALSO KNEW THIS LADY AS WELL THE ONE THAT WAS MURDERED THAT IS. I HAD TURNED AWAY FROM HER ONLY BECAUSE I HAD THE SAME PROBLEM THERE LIKE I DID OR DO ALWAYS. I JUST DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO HER IS WHY I HAD LET YOU KNOW THAT I DO NEED TO BE PRAYED FOR CAUSE THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME THAT I'VE DONE THIS, AND I DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE. IN JESUS' PRECIOUS NAME FOREVER, AMEN