I wish to be more like you jesus, I wish this with all my heart. To look at the world with a burning passion. I wish and ask you in your name to be a special vessel for you. To show people that the impossible can happen, through you. That what my heart desires happens. Set in stone for my path to follow. I ask you wash away my misery and suffering, but yet a smile crosses my face through my tears. Because i know you art with me. that i have faith when i cry my deepest cry that is happening now. that you heal me quickly. Do not let the fool who did this to me get away with such a thing. For he betrayed my trust, and took advantage of my mind, but i have told you! if we are meant to be so be it. if not then so be it. do not let me suffer for long. Make me stronger and stronger each day. I want to live my dream and be able to support myself. You are the miracle in my life. and when the right person comes along the soul mate. tell me. let me know. sometimes i dont even know what to pray, when these times come, search my heart. you see my pain now. it is temporary. for in the night you may weep but in the day you will be of joy. Please jesus help my mother get closer to you. Protect my dad while he is on vacation. I want my parents to see me live my dream! and cry wwith joy when it happens. I want them to see me do it JESUS! its been too long! im pouring my heart out so much to you that. i am crying my eyes out. Take this pain and make it gold! soften my heart! do not let me be bitter! and parched. I pray for crystal, i pray for melissa, i pray for sylvia and dan, i pray for the one who has hurt me. it is ok that this day ended badly. but you were there to catch me! to show me! to wake me up! I ask all this in your namen amen. before it happens, after it happens, and when it happens. amen amen.