Dear God my beloved father. I am struggling with so much in my soul. I have become something I have despised. I pray for your forgiveness. I pray that you may lead me in the right direction. I pray for peace and direction. I want to be everything you want me to be...I pray for strength, acceptance and most of all love. I pray for a job, money to pay my bills, I thank you father for all the gifts in my life. I know you are with me at all times. I may not seem like I am listening, but I am... In Jesus name amen. Your love and forgiveness is the most precious gift in the world. Please lord help me forgive myself. Wrap your loving arms around me and help heal my soul. I know that troubled times is a test of faith. I have faith in you father. I surrender my will and ask for healing. May it be your will and not MY will. I thank you father for the gifts that you have provided me. I know that with Faith, All THINGS are possible. Thank you father, Amen