please pray for me and my partner we both have mental health and find things hard to cope with as im an open person and hes more closed when comes to emotions and feelings so really want him to be able to open up and to be more supportive as we argue over petty but the same things all the time, we are struggling financially so that doesnt help and with me having no luck in jobs despite applying for jobs is making me feel low, worthless and fed up, just feel ive not had a lucky break for a while and need things to start looking more positive, he has adhd and i have eupd by the way, just really need things to change so that hes more supportive and more sensitive to my needs as i do all the housework cook and clean and i just feel unappreciated. we need to spend more quality time together as when we spend time its often with him mate in the pub so hes a bad influence on him, just need god to talk to my partner and help him to realise our relationship needs work and to make changes so that it works as i dont feel listened to and things just go round in circles all the time so just need him to say he will make changes and stick to them rather than say stuff and do the opposite, we have fallen out before and had a week apart to think things through but got back together, we love each other and when we are good we are great, but when we are both stressed we take it out on each other which we hate doing but it happens, we say sorry as both know we cant help how we feel, just really need help to bring us closer together again like when we first met which will be 2 years ago this christmas when got together.

ive been struggling alot lately for the past year or so mentally and emotionally due to a horrible situation that happened in 2012 i got through it with the love and support of my partner at the time but in 2014 we split up, it broke my heart as still love him to this very day, he no longer lives in same area of where i live but still sees me once every couple months or so when work isnt hectic, he compliments me and says things he used to say to me when was together im feeling mixed emotions as even tho he says we wont get back together i look in his eyes and still see love for me and the way he makes me feel is something no other guy has ever made me feel, i cry very often over him and always pray that one day god will bring us back together again properly as hes the other love of my life god being one, ive never felt a love so strong for anyone else, i know we had our problems arguments etc due to both of us having a personality disorder but still both loved eachother despite those illnesses, he says we wont get back together but i think its coz hes mainly scared of it not working even tho some issues have been resolved i just wish he had more faith in the words hwhat if, coz i would do just about anything to prove to him it could work if gave it another chance, im so heartbroken and the only times i feel true happiness is when he sees me just need a miracle for us to be together because yes we had our problems but the love was always there and i know that with just him having a little faith and hope in us we could get back together im even thinking of moving where he is to be closer to him and prove how i really miss and want him in my life so please people pray we will work out, i know its gods plan who im with but theres been answers to prayers about him just seeing me getting in touch and being understanding and he has been so i just really need this to make me happy again and complete coz without him i feel im missing the other half of me if that makes sense to anyone :'( sorry im so emotional seems all i do is cry and break down so i need peace patience and motivation in order to do what i need to do to work things out thanks for reading hope people can understand that its not just a crush its heart aching butterflys in stomach cry happy tears when see him kinda love we were engaged also as wanted to marry him and settle down but things got complicated and he gave up trying but i still havent given up hoping, i love him more than words can express so please pray for housing to move me where he is for a fresh start and to be closer to him as ive wanted a change of area and scenery for a while but havent been motivated to do anything about it, the same with a job so please pray all these areas will be met and that things can start looking good for the future because as much as i try i cant do any of this alone right now :'( x

anxieties, insecurities when comes to relationships with guys and own self image getting a flat and right part time job and coping with every situation without turning to drink or self harm, also for my family for my dad recovering from cancer, mum with dementia and that my other family will just know i love and miss them when dont see them so for god to bless them