Please don't give up! You are LOVED (John 3:16, Jeremiah 31:3)... You are Chosen (1 Peter 2:9)! It may be difficult to see how much you are loved - but you are (I'm sure by so many people as well as the Lord!). I know it's easier said that done, but turn your cares over to God.. He will be with you. Praying for you & for peace & comfort for you.