Dearest Flossy! You are truly loved by God. He created you for a purpose and though it may seem like He is far away just remember that God cannot lie. He said in His word that He will never leave you not forsake you. You, my dear, have a purpose and Satan is the only one who does not want you to succeed. I don't know you but I want you to succeed. People hurt us all the time, I've been hurt and what helped me was taking it to God in prayer and talking it out with someone you trust. Please don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Your best days are ahead of you. Please call and get help. The suicide hotline number is 1-800-273-8255... please call them. I'm praying that God will deliver you from your despair and will comfort you during this difficult time. God is with you. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾