I dont believe in god, and yet I found my way on here. My brother is very sick and hes in the hospital right now. I witnessed a horrible event, my brother threw up in front of me and mom in his hospital room and had a seizure. I can't get that moment out of my head. I can't stop thinking about the way I screamd for help, the way my brother looked, my mother crying and trying to hold my brother up, I'm still crying about it. He is in a unresponsive state and I can't keep seeing him like that. I'm terrified. I'm scared. I just wanna keep crying but what will that do? Where is god? Was he listening to my brother who prayed for his pain to go away? Was he just watching as my brother suffered every day and night at the hospital? I want a reason to believe that god is real and that he will heal my brother. Please, anyone who is reading this, pray for my brother Tyler, pray that he will wake up and that he will start getting better. Pray that he will walk out of this hospital healthy and with a new look at life. I cant handle this on my own. I'm not strong. I'm not. Please god, please help me. Help my brother. Help my mother. Please help me