I need for the Lord to help me and get me out of this toxic relationship I’m in. No matter what I do it’s never enough. Everything is always my fault. It’s my fault I got cancer, my fault that I’m having adverse effects and lethargy from the chemo and feeling sick but “your lazy” get up and do something. Not enough that she hasn’t worked for years but is looking everyday and I’m here working 6 days a week killing myself for someone that has been so ungrateful. Won’t help me when I’m feeling ill or take me to get chemo so I have to drive 2 hours each way on top of the 5 hours for chemo to be infused. I’m stuck until I’m able to save money to move out and away from here so I really need God to open up some doors and help me