Hi Kimber, the minute you spend a good solid hour with yourself alone and actually confront and admit your past and be accountable for your mistakes, (no blaming others but being accountable even when you are a victim and because of that you act out of that situation) You will find that the darkness will start to fade , god is waiting for you to be accountable for your choices and your actions so he can then move you forward in a positive way. He cant move you forward if you are still dwelling on the past and holding onto it, he can only move you forwards if you let it go and by that it is through confrontation and confronting those who have hurt you. (emails is better than in person or another form of contact)You will move forward in 2020 but you wont start to feel it until late January and by march you'll be working as an outreach support social worker type position and helping others because you know what its like, take your pain, acknowledge be accountable and then use that pain to help others heal because you can relate, and that my friend is fulfilling purpose not just ''existing''

Well,Kimber,it looks like in this picture that you have a beautiful baby & this is where your attention should be located.I have raised 4 & I know it is no easy thing,but we put all the love we can muster in this & thru this it will keep your mind off the things you shouldn't be doing,you have to think about how much this child needs your full attention.your a beautiful lady & that baby is well dressed,I know that the Father is beside you,leading,guiding & directing you so you have the strength to do what you need to do.Yes dear lady,you have been given some beautiful blessings.You are so very loved.Remember that.God bless you,amen.