I pray that the desires of my heart regarding the pain I am suffering today and have been for several years, are desires that are in line with God's will for me. That the things I yearned for and to be a part of, will come to fruition. Please pray that if my heart has deceived me, that God will give me discernment, forgive me and help me to move in the direction He wants me to. Help me to have faith in all His promises. Lord search my heart and show me You. If my desires are in line with you Lord, and I just need to wait for your timing, then Lord keep my love in tact and tender. Save it for when you are ready for me to lavish it. In the meantime Lord, please ease my pain and use this time for me to get closer to Jesus and build my faith. I pray that the Holy Spirit is the loudest voice in my heard and will drown out my feelings of rejection and my fear of being unworthy of being loved.