The change I seek begins with myself. I have been working on myself hard core for 20 months now. Between prayer, scripture, worship and pointing the finger at myself and my own behavior. Now, I am defeated and broken. I am emotionally neglected by every person in my life with the exception of my children and the Lord. So the changes I so desire in my husband and my family around me, I don't care anymore. They will treat me how they want to treat me and I will stand silent with my head down like Jesus did. Amen, I love you Lord.