I lost my husband of almost 40 years on St. Patrick's day 2yrs ago. I found a wonderful group called GriefShare in my church. I've gone through it twice seems plain on going again. You are in good company with other wives of loss. God blues you sweat one. It will get less painful over time and Willie Nelson wrote al song that says "Its not something you get over, it's something you go through". True words, everyone, true words.

I'm glad you reached out. Good sent you here for a purpose and I'd like to ask you if you have a diagnosis?