A peace of mind and a better understanding of why I make things difficult and why does it take the most part of me...sometimes when I'm alone I cry because of my life that it seams so difficult not being able to have the companion in a way that God would have me to. I am In love with the most outstanding man that makes me think about him every single day. I've prayed to God that he blesses me with that man if it's his will. I've stayed away from him even though we keep finding our way back to each other.... I get so emotional inside that I don't know what to do with myself at times but to cry and ask for help. I need all that can pray.. to pray for me that I get the peace of mind to go on and not worry or think about it but to let his will be done. The reason I say it's difficult is because I am 46 years old and I am a single mom of two that works very hard. I don't seem to have any time for my self but to always handle things to please others. I don't like my first job but I tolerate it to deal with the one I find it hard to work with. Sometimes I don't under stand this persons spirit that makes me feel so uncomfortable to where I choose not to want to be in this environment. Only God knows how I truly feel and what's going on deep down inside. I do want to be moved to a better place to work that's more suitable as a blessing for me. I pray this prayer of faith in the name of JESUS Amen.;