GOD & PEOPLE OF GOD, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP WORRYING AS I HAVE BEEN FOR 4 YEARS NOW IT IS TAKING A TOLL ON ME I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN MY TROUBLES OF FALSE STATEMENTS OF ME WILL BE DISMISSED AS I GO TO COURT THIS NEXT FRIDAY AS I HAVE ONLY WANTED THE BEST FOR ME WIFE THAT GOT HOOKED ON PAIN PILLS WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY AS I BEEN WAITING FOR COURT I NOW TAKE A PAIN PILL DAILY YES I HAVE PAIN BUT THE OLD SAYING CAN'T BEST THEM JOIN THEM. I DID NOT DO THAT GOING ON 3 YRS. AND 5 TOTAL YEARS OF GETTING OFF THEM MY DEAR SHEILA WILL NOT STOP AND WE HAVE GROWN APART I AM SORRY LORD I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT THIS SITUATION ANY LONGER I TOLD THE TRUTH ABOUT MY PART OF THIS AND I ONLY WANT TO CLEAR MY NAME UP AS I BEEN A MODEL CITIZEN FOR WELL OVER A DECADE NOW AND FOREVER, I JUST STARTED TO GO BACK TO CHURCH I MUST STOP LIVING LIKE THIS OR I AM DOOMED FOR DEATH OR WORSE A STROKE AND OR HEART ATTACK, I HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE OVER THIS SITUATION I NEVER GET THIS OUT OF MY HEAD AS I TRIED TO SAY A LIFE WHEN SHE LEFT A SUICIDE LETTER 2 DAYS BEFORE I SAW HER WITH A HAND GUN IN THE ROOM MESSED UP ON PILLS AND ALCOHOL. I ONLY THOUGHT OF HER SAFETY THAT IS ALL I CALLED 911 WHEN THE GUN ACIDENTLY WENT OFF NO ONE GOT HURT I TOLD THEM HOW AND WHY THIS HAPPENED TOP ME BUT HER STORY THEY BELIEVED BECAUSE I HAVE A RECORD SHE IS AN EVIL PERSON TO ME SHE TRIED TO TAKE MY HOME FROM ME PUT ME BEHIND BARS TILL I BAILED OUT IN 3 DAYS TO GO BACK AGAIN BC THEY DID NOT SEND A COURT DATE TO ME OR MY LAWYER IT IS LIKE A BLACK CLOUD WAS FOLLOWING ME AROUND LIKE A SPELL WAS ON ME FOR 7 DAYS, THIS WAS IN 2013 OF AUGEST TO THIS DATE I HAVE FOUND VERY LITTLE PEACE AND WHEN I DO GET THAT MOMENT OF PEACE IT GOES FASTER THEN IT CAME I WORRY A LOT THAT IS ME. GOD I ASK IN JESUS NAME TO REMOVE THIS FEAR FROM ME . THE ONLY THING I FEAR IS THE FEAR A JUDGE WILL HAVE OVER ME WHEN I AM INNOCENT OF ALL OF THIS PLEASE LORD HELP ME PLEASE PEOPLE OF GOD PRAY FOR MY STRESS TO LEAVE ALSO AS I SHOULD BE ASKING PLEASE PRAY FOR ME THAT MY LIVER GETS BETTER AS I AM ON TREATMENT FOR THIS SITUATION ON THIS MATTER FOR 6 MORE WEEKS PLEASE GIVE ME THE MOTIVATION TO GO FORWARD WITH MY LIFE AWAY FROM SHEILA AND FREE OF LIVER PROBLEMS. AMEN. I LOVE YOU GOD I LOVE YOU JESUS THE ONLY SON OF GOD THE KING OF KINGS I PRAY.