Dear God,
Until when will I suffer within my own heart and mind? I need the answer as time is passing by rather quickly. There is not enough time to spare...
I know I've hurt You in the past, but You are not a God of revenge, nor a God who repays bad with bad or evil with evil. I urge You, Lord Jesus, to come speedily to me, for I am this close of losing my mind. I'm hurting badly, silently, and loudly. You know the source of my pain, and know how confused I am to the very core of my soul. Don't wait any longer, Lord, to give me the answer that You have picked for me. Should I continue? or should I stop? Only You can provide me with my yearned-for answer. Many times I've made the mistake before of coming to You lastly, but here I am now coming to You before anything and anyone else. I need You God. I cry day and night with silent tears as well as rivers of tears that over-flood my face. I know I'm not worthy of Your grace, but You are a God of mercy and kindness. Help me! I need to know if this is a pit of fire, or if this is indeed a blessed journey I'm about to be blessed with. Don't wait any longer, God. Precious time is passing, and I'm sincerely desperate for Your answer of: Yes / No. Thank you, and I love you.

Desperately pleading,
+Your lost daughter+