I turn to you Lord. I need strength to get through this tough time I am having in my life. I want to stop thinking about how he did me wrong for the sake of our kids but I can not let it go... God I ask you to give me power to become me again and to stop hating and resenting him, I want to love again and laugh and be happy and right now things could not get any worse :( I have lost so much and in that lost who I am and only you my Lord can lead me to a brighter tomorrow. My heart hurts when I think of not being with him and I dont want to feel that anymore Lord. I need to be at peace with myself before I can be at peace with him. I love my boys more than anything on earth and I want to do the right thing for them but I just dont know what way to go now...he is a great father but just brings me down. Please GOD I need you!