Hi there... I am writing this with a very heavy heart... I have been blessed abundantly and have so much to be thankful for but on the 15th of October 2017 my whole life was pulled apart... I was going to get married on the 26 August 2018 to the love of my life whom I share two beautiful boys with..but..due to neglect in hospital my fiance and life partner of 15 years past away of septic shock :( I am devastated and so are my boys. I am 32 now and went down a really dark road but managed to pull myself together for the sake of our boys... I stopped drinking and smoking and don't go out at all and I only did it twice..the main issue here is that my fiance had no Will and left us with nothing :( I would rather want him then finances ANY-DAY but I need to provide for my boys.. his parents has decided that I can have a flat in their yard and that is nice of them but they come and go as they please, I have no privacy what so ever and I have rules to live by and they have taken our car that we were buying from them back and giving me driving privileges to work and school.. I know I should be grateful and I am I just need a break... I cry for my love every day and night but try not to do it in front of my boys.. I just need prayers that the case I have against the hospital will be won by us soonest and that he will not just be a name on a file :( There really are no words to express my pain... my pain for me and my pain for the boys and family... There is nothing I would not do to hold him again :`( he really was the love of my life and we were happy together since I was 17... I need prayers that I will continue being strong and for healing of my heart that is absolutely shattered... Even writing this message.. brings tears to my eyes and pain in my heart. I just want to be able to breathe again without feeling like someone is sitting on my chest :( I also want to pray that my boys can be more disciplined and not give me so much stress and grief as they are only 5 and 8 but I struggle to be strict because they lost their father...we all lost the biggest part of our existence and I have no idea how to deal with this pain properly.. Nothing will ever be the same and I need to make peace with that. Please can you pray for me to forgive as I am trying but don't feel strong enough on my own. I have joined a church and a prayer group and it helps but it feels like I am drowning...slowly going under and I don't want to give up. My boys need me more than anything now and I want to be there for them. Thank you...my name is Sonya and his name was Johann <3 I will always miss him but I need prayers to keep strong and move forward.

Lord you know me...you know my heart and my soul and my pain and my sorrow. I do you wrong and I am not perfect but I know you always look after me. Lord, I need your help with my life...I cant go on like this any longer. My heart is empty without my kids and its killing me not being with them because I could not stay in that loveless relationship. I have many worries and Lord You know what they are, I ask for prayers to make me stronger and help me in my fight. I dont want to take the kids away from him, he is not a bad father... I just want them back. I need you to help me find stability and help me with my dark heart Lord, I need Your guiding hand to watch over my boys and keep them safe and let them know like I do every chance I get that I love them and will never stop! I need Your guiding hand to help me to not do something stupid and regret it later. I pray to You in Jesus Name, Amen!

Please Lord help all the farmers who are getting so brutally killed :( I dont know why any human would kill another in such horrid ways OR AT ALL! God, be with those who have lost loved ones and be with those who are being tortured and keep Your mighty hand over them and lead them into Your warm loving embrace. I ask everyone to pray for the woman, children and men of our world. In Jesus Name. Amen. <3

Thank you Lord for hearing my prayers! Thank you so much for all you have blessed us with. I will forever be greatful. I love You Lord <3 Please bless everyone <3

Lord, I want to thank you for what you have given me and for always being there when I need you but I really do need a better job and the stress is eating at me cause I can’t provide for my kids with everything going up. God I ask you to please help me find a job where I can earn enough to live and not just try to survive. I ask you this in Your heavenly name. Amen <3 Please pray for me, God bless each and every one of you <3

Lord let me get this job so I can give my children the life they deserve. Please let them offer me enough to get us through the months. I really need this! Amen. Thank you for all and God bless you xxxxx

I turn to you Lord. I need strength to get through this tough time I am having in my life. I want to stop thinking about how he did me wrong for the sake of our kids but I can not let it go... God I ask you to give me power to become me again and to stop hating and resenting him, I want to love again and laugh and be happy and right now things could not get any worse :( I have lost so much and in that lost who I am and only you my Lord can lead me to a brighter tomorrow. My heart hurts when I think of not being with him and I dont want to feel that anymore Lord. I need to be at peace with myself before I can be at peace with him. I love my boys more than anything on earth and I want to do the right thing for them but I just dont know what way to go now...he is a great father but just brings me down. Please GOD I need you!