Pretty much my whole life I've felt badly about myself....never thought I was good enough...had things happen in my childhood I wish never did...did things in my teens and up to now I wish never happened....I have a 19 yr old daughter who doesn't like me...she lives with her dad...I've been in a relationship for 16yrs and we have 2 beautiful babies...Alizabeth 4yrs in April and Ryahn 2yrs in March...blessed...but don't feel worthy of happiness...don't feel like I deserve it...my love of my life has always been a leader and he's trying to help me heal....I've overcome addictions...well I thought I did...only cuz I'm not doing them as often...alcohol and pain med's....I feel hopeless...I ruin everything around me...I'm asking for strength and forgiveness...forgiving is beyond hard for me and it's the one thing I need to do in order to move on in my life...I need to forgive the people who hurt me and most of all forgive myself....I PRAY FOR FORGIVENESS...I PRAY GOD FORGIVES ME FOR ALL OF MY NEGATIVE ACTIONS....I PRAY FOR FORGIVENESS...thank you and God Bless