I can remember never feeling good enough. I grew up in a middle class family, my mother married 3 times and none of those men including my biological father were able to stand up and be a healthy father figure. I grew into adolescence searching for love in all the wrong places. I was used, abused and neglected. I did feel God's presence from time to time but nothing overwhelming. I did happen upon a few healthy relationships but I ended them because I again never felt good enough. I started drinking and that seemed to fill a void for many years. I married and had two children. My husband was not able to receive and give love in a healthy manner. He was very emotionally and mentally abusive. We divorced and I went down hill quickly. The trauma of my childhood resurfaced as I was going through the divorce. I began to drink to calm my nerves when the children were with their father. The stress and my inability to cope lead me down a path of self-destruction. I lost everything. Except GOD. He was there in the storm. Although I didn't have an earthly father that I could depend on he had brought me to this place to let me know that he was here to help me through. It took some time and some very painful experiences. Being without my children for awhile almost killed me. He took me step by step through the valley of the shadow of death but did not drop me. I am living proof that GOD is the only father that you need. If you have a wonderful earthly father then you are doubly blessed. I still struggle to this day because I'm not currently in a relationship and want a healthy, loving one so much. I have prayed and put it into GOD's hands. I always found my self wanting my Daddy to tell me how much I was worth and how much I was loved. But I do have the most high father that tells me everyday, Yes, Lori you do deserve better! And if you have faith to wait on me you will have everything your heart desires. I am truly blessed! I give GOD all the glory!