God s timing is much different from the world's. Maybe you should try renting to own by owner options or a roommate cosigner. God bless you and prayers sent. God's plan is always worth the wait. Trust Him. It's all been planned out so if doors open that seem possible to reach the goal of independence, walk with trust. God's answers prayers just so unexpedly and not exactly how you ask. But it will be the best way. God's luck.

Amen now believe and receive.

You perhaps?

I feel that way at times, less the more I have began talking to Jesus and Father God. Not just praying but talking as if he was there with me. Asking questions, or letting Him hear me vent even though He already knows and future outcomes. I have now lived alone with my lil dog going on 5 years. I felt cast out of the loop. I would overwelm catch up talks. I finally realized if a person calls you a friend or vice versa, that should build up and balance. If anyone makes you feel betrayed, used or worse when you leave the visit than when you arrived. Time to meet better friend that balance. God bless you 🙏 Good place to start an eternal friendship is at the Cross. Take your cares too Jesus and trust Him. ☮️