Praying for you and your husband right now. Blessings on you both.

Some people leave your life, but not your heart. Those words might not sound comforting, but (from experience) you can move on and find love with someone else even while you still hold love in your heart for the person you're no longer with. It is a hard journey, but don't give up - it will be worth it when you find someone else who you'll love. It will happen eventually. In the meantime be kind to yourself. Know you are not worthless. None of Gods children are worthless. Peace be with you.