I'm praying for you, call on somebody to be with you or check in on you. I know at this point us praying for you and telling you to trust God is not doing anything for you right now, so I really want you to reach out to somebody you dont have to tell them anything if you dont want to but just tell them you need help and you need them to be there for you.

I went through this before too, and my brother and I understand it is just very dark, unbearable, and difficult with just despair and hopelessness, deep emptiness and endless problems, try to take things one step at a time, one minute at a time if you need too.

Focus on the present and do not worry and look too far ahead in the future or the past, know that you cannot control everything and that God has a plan for you, a great one, do try to hold on. Life goes up and down so take heart that what you are going through right now will not last forever.

If all else fails and your mind just wants to give up try to think of someone and pray for them especially anybody that is sick or having a hard time as well. Hang in there you are loved you are precious somebody cares for you so take care of yourself and I really pray for some comfort, peace and joy for you :)