Wow I know how you feel :( ya I am always wondering why mom and I cannot get along it breaks my heart also I love her SOo much but just she always makes me feel like I am a enemy out to get her :( sometimes even if you are doing good in life it won't matter much, Sometimes you just gotta know that when she is no longer there she will see the truth on how much you wanted this relationship sadly to say just know that you have to stay strong for your health I really know the pain God Bless XOXO