Your life is precious... if those others dont think so its because they just dont know what to do or how to handle it anymore. You do need to reach out for professional help, and it's okay, we ALL have struggles, and you need help with yours from people who are trained professionals. If you want to be clean then do everything you can to find help, because You are lovable, you're in a bad way though... having family/friends who dont help you.. well maybe they lost trust, even though you mean well, and they cant handle your problems,and that is sad, but they (and you) are only human. I know getting help for addiction is not easy, because I know some who have tried. Do not give up, grab ahold of your inner strength & keep praying to God, but you have to do your part, dont tell lies, dont be embarrassed...addiction is a huge problem these days & I know the urge to use feels horribly strong, BUT, you CAN harness the power within you to change your life & keep seeking help from the right people, professionals. You have to be honest with everyone in your life, so they can learn to trust you again. Be kind, be respectful & take responsibility for your addiction, your life & choices. YOU CAN FIGHT YOURADDICTION, especially with help. You need to LOVE YOURSELF and treat yourself well, and get yourself as much help as you can. You are good inside, you just have to make up your mind that you will do everything in your power to get well, (legally), to be honest & respectful in relationships, and to never ever give up! Trust God that there are reasons beyond your understanding for what you are going through, and take responsibility for yourself & your choices. You need to earn others trust & respect back, it tskes time, and you working on yourself. You ARE lovable, so please dont give up! Your life is more precious than you realize. I'll pray for good people to come into your life to help you, but you also must search & search to find ways. Life is always changing, and suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. God bless you with all the help you require to be well, and God bless you with the love & care that you deserve. Don't ever give up!

I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your son & grandson. I feel for you, I cannot imagine the depth of your pain & I'm very sorry for your heart that is aching. Please lean on God, ask him for comfort & guidance and to lift the pain from your heart.
God bless you & your family with comfort, blessings and love, a lot of love.

I'm so sorry for what you're going through, and what your father is going through. I've had recurring depression & anxiety throughout my adult life, so I know how low & desperate one can feel... but there IS help! Having his doctor put him on antidepressants, AND getting counseling from a good Psychologist, can be very helpful & even life-saving! Please tell him his life is precious, no matter what... and to not EVER lose hope! (Or, have him read this.) I don't know his situation, but he does need help immediately, so hopefully he is seeking that out. God bless you, your Dad & family. Prayer sent up. 🙏❤

Prayers sent up for you, Diana. Is there anyone you can reach out to for help or guidance? Such as your Pastor, a trusted friend, or other trusted relative? There is a hotline for those who are mentally stressed by the Covid issues, isolation, etc... I see it on TV daily, perhaps it would help if it fits your needs: Ph# 1-800-985-5990. God bless you & direct you to those who can be of help to you. 🙏💗

I understand... I've dealt with on & off depression & anxiety throughout most of my adult life. There IS help in many forms, there is always HOPE, do Not give up & do Not give into the negative thinking, because you WILL get through this every time, you will ride that wave of depression every time & come out of it again feeling happy & thankful to still be alive! Pray - ask for God's guidance & help, ask for your Doctor's help, or a Psychologist, friend, minister.... someone to help you through this or who will give you the resources & connections to help you.
When you are feeling so low &/or scared with anxiety, please ask God to lift the emotional burden off of you & truly from your heart & soul ask this. Ask God often to deal with your troubles for you & to lift negative thoughts & feelings from you. Practice turning negative thoughts into positive thoughts until it becomes a daily habit. Your thoughts are powerful, so use thought wisely. Just keep trying, and practice being Thankful... even in your low times, find things or people, etc... to be thankful for.... these can be as simple as having clean water to drink & bathe with, because so many do not have that. The saying goes, "there is always, always something to be thankful for." Also, life & situations are always changing, and we have to wait with patience for the valleys to become hills again, aka highs & lows of life. Believe me, when you least expect it things can change quickly & surprise you.... maybe not always right when you want it to, but life keeps going & changing and we go with the flow the best we can until things are looking up again. Believe in yourself, believe you are strong enough, and you are worth it!! Your life is precious, your life has a purpose even if you can't see it. Usually we mean more to some people than we even realize... just think if you gave up, how many people who care about you would be left hurting without you. God put us all here for a reason(s) even though we might not see or realize what the reasons are, or what the lessons are, we still need to keep going. When you feel so depressed & are losing hope, please "ride the wave of the depression"... this is my own expression when I feel too deeply depressed... I ride with it, ride it out, wait.... you WILL come through to the other side & feel so thankful to still be here, to have another chance... it is worth it every time! God bless you & lift your spirits and comfort you during your times of depression, anxiety & fear. Please seek help of some kind, or from someone, and hang on! God wants you to live out the 'gift of life' that was given to you....not because it's always easy, but because you and all of us are learning lessons in this life, and learning about love. Trust that God, or the higher power of positive energies are always with you, and that everything is for the good & advancement of our souls. Lord bless you & keep you safe. 🙏⚘😇