Hello blessed people..

I have trouble with my own self. I feel so lost and I can't find my true self. It feels like I have dual personality. My mind and my act is always changing. First, I make a decision, and a few moments later myself do not approve it, and change my decision after that. I like people who have no consistency at all. At first, I think I'm a neutral person consisting of neutrons as the dominant atomic. Sometimes I am very diligent, and sometimes I'm so lazy. I am very smart sometimes, and sometimes I am very stupid. Sometimes I behave very well, but sometimes I behaved very badly. Sometimes I feel I am close to God, trust in Him. And vice versa, sometimes I like people who do not know God.This is my fear when my evil side appeared. I don't want a bad thing, but then I did, and then I regret it, and then do it again. Sometimes I feel very grateful, sometimes I blame my life. Whether it is a normal thing? I felt I was very strange person. And now, my good side desperately need to get closer to God, and the evil side I feel very lazy and prestige to execute all His commands. And one important thing is I am a forgetful acute though I was young. Sometimes I forget what I have done and what I would do. And for thousands of caring people, please help me to find my true self by your pray. God bless you all.