Dear god..

I really don't know how to elaborate on my feelings into words now.., except to say that I am caught in a very 'stuck in the mud' situation.. To trust or not to trust..? The sufferings that I had been gaining for the past 3yrs were terrible..

I yearn for happiness..

God.., I pray that my illness will not befall on me again.. I don't want to see people who loves me to be worried when they know that I am sick.. I want to see them happy.. :) God, you gave me light when you lead me into recovery one year ago.. Please bless me again by not letting it come back to me..