I'm going in for 3 C Vertebras to be replaced and as much as I pray , I still get scared. I am 60 and don't think everything will go as planned . The Doctors tell me that they think they may have caught it in time but don't know for sure. they think I may be as crippled as I am right now , or paralyzed for the remainder of my life ! as often as I've preached to my wife about GOD and CHRIST , I'm still scared and ashamed of my fear of this surgery , when I told my wife not to worry , its all in gods hands , and yet , I don't feel worthy of his love or protection. I hide to cry and loth myself for my weakness in faith ,when I told wife she was in good hands with GOD ! Why cant I be less of a hypocrite when it comes to me ! I have studied the word of GOD , and have no problem praying for others , just not myself. As much as I ask , I just don't get an answer. Maybe I am not going to make it , maybe I will , I don't know , but I do trust God and his will . amen