i want to thank you first for this realization that i've seen darker and scarier places before, and that now its nothing compared to what other's whoa re still living that life. Thank you for the joy I felt, and that my journey is at end. Please God , I know this is not much like before, please take away my anger, and my guilt that comes with it , because Its not as a big deal as with others. help me dettached form it so I can forgive and maintain this joy that i found . I don't want to go back to the same place i've been. I pray that this anger that resurfaced is just a part of the purification process, and please, please forgive me for the ways I express my intense angmr, for this is the only way I know how.atleast for now. help me in this path I take, because its only you and me who seemed to understand it. Help me be whole and please don't let me give up when I'm only a step away from my treasure,and help me thrive and be whole. love, happiness and satisfaction. help me be a good provider for my daughter.stregnth of will and the will to do good. Thank you for the realization that I've already come a long way and that i'm happier now than who i was before. Amen.