lord, im really having a hard time deciding on what i want. please give me the strength to be firm on whatever my decision will be. i just want to be happy. and i want him to be happy too. but there are many things holding me back. and he has many unsettled issues too. lead us to the right way lord, be it the one where we will be together, or not. open our minds that we may discern what will be the best for the both of us...