God, and Jesus, i need help right now. When the love of my life died very shortly before we were to marry, 8 years ago, the only thing that comforted me was that he had finally asked Jesus to come into his heart and became a christian. I was so heartbroken that i decided to not date anyone ever again. since then ive dated 2 guys, the 2nd being the one i live with now. its not working out at all but despite me making it clear that i want him to leave, 5 years later he is still here. i have done everything short of getting a restraining order because i just dont want to be with him anymore, but at the same time i know he has nowhere to go (i wanted him to move from ohio to oregon where i am from) and knows no one else here. but i am very unhappy and scared that being in a relationship with this guy will screw up my chances of reuniting with my soulmate in heaven. i am also panicking because i dont want any relationship to last longer than my relationship with my fiancee/soulmate did and that time is rapidly approaching. so i am asking God, that you fill my heart with the strength to do what i need to do to be with my fiancee in heaven, and that you please show the person im currently living with that you exist so he can be saved because he seems really hopeless and empty to me and angry as well. also, i ask that my anxiety regarding my relationship with you God/Jesus be healed- i am scared that i wont make it to heaven even though i have asked you into my heart many times. i want a better relationship/understanding with you. i also would love some assurance about the path i should be on so i can finally marry my soulmate in your kingdom someday. also, i have debilitating fear regarding aliens, satan, the illuminati in the music industry, GMO's, Monsanto, and the coming end times etc. i pray that you will give me guidance as to what the truth is and shield me from this incredible fear and sadness regarding all this. I am yours and will be a warrior for good and love and truth. Please just comfort and guide me, from now on, and help me find the opportunities and the words to save peoples souls from hell. Thank you God, Jesus and those who can pray for me <3