I am so confused and feel so alone in this world. Yesterdays message about have strong family base really hit home. I never had that. So I have been looking for a spiritual home for over a year now. I am starting to lose hope. I am so tired of people telling to have patience.

I have a hard time trusting others. But I do not want to shut myself off to the world. I have been told I need to be more specific in my prayers. I can't just name being in my pray's and say Lord I need this or want that. I don't know how to do. I know God has a plan for me. I feel like he is trying to tell me something. I just don't speak his language. So I am asking for prays for direction and patient. I wake up in the middle of the night with panic attacks and no one is there.