These are difficult times and it sounds like you have faced many challenges. As big as they may seem our God is bigger. Keep leaning in and putting your complete faith and trust in Him. I try so hard to take the reigns and control what I really can’t. It creates so much stress, doubt, and sadness but we have to keep our heads up and know through all of this He is still God and still watching over us. I hope you can rest in comfort and peace knowing He’s watching over you this night.