I recently had a Neuro Stimulator implant due to an injury in 2010. Prayers please for healing <3 I am still unable to do so many things I want to do without being in pain. I guess I have to much time on my hands and feeling depressed. The loss of my mother in 2008, the loss of my father, grandmother and aunts r the people who kept laughter in my life and I am missing them terribly. Just don't know how to get over all the depression. I have 3 grown children and a husband...but I guess they do not understand grief. I go to all their graves quite often but my heart weighs heavy with grief. Does it ever get easier? I then think of all the people that have reason for more grief than I and I start to feel better. I have always been a pleasant person with laughter and smiles but everything changed in 2008. I pray to get laughter back into my life soon. I do not understand the unhappiness in my life. I also have 4 grandchildren that r blessings in my life. They see me cry and wonder what is wrong. They r too young to understand grief. May I ask u to pray for happiness to return to my life. My oldest daughter is such a sweet person but she has an addiction to pain medication and stealing. She is 33 yrs. old and has 2 young children that I worry about a lot. Please pray for her. If she only knew how she is ruining her life. Thank you all for your support and prayers. <3