All blessings come from God!

My thought are as I sit here bawling from reading your post at how all to familiar I am with the exact same thing. The only reason I don't have a gun is because I know I will use it in my worst times and I would not be here to type this. I pray that the prayers that other people are praying for you will work better than mine do. I hope you don't do it but I can understand it. My intelect tells me we are both loved and we both have a purpose but why I can't see it feel it or touch it after so many years its just really hard to keep it up. Please don't do it. You know in a few days you'll feel better even if it is just for a moment. Every day we wake up we are given one more chance to get it right. Just don't do it. Put you gun away and save it for someone who deserves it. It's not you nor me.

He is real I promise you that. You must understand that his timing is not the same as ours. Faith Brittany. Please don't think I have ever had the same conversation as you are having because I have. I just know that God always comes through. God is love he is not out to hurt you Satan is the one for that. Don't let the lies of satan determine your faith in God. You've got this I just feel it in my bones. I am praying for you open your arms and receive it.

What age person are you speaking of. If this is an older person this could be traits of alzheimers or dementia. I do pray for her salvation.

I feel you on every single level and then some. I continue to mourn the breakup of my second husband even though it has been 10 years and he is remarried. I still cannot forget and move on. He was my safe place and now it is gone. I left my job of working Oncology Hematology for 29 years to file for disability. Since the loss of my husband I had lost a very special dog to me then I lost my mother and then I lost my sister at the age of just 62, my father passed in 2002 so I really felt and still feel quite alone. I have two children who are grown and although they are quite old enough to realized how important I am in there life they still have not arrived. I sometimes feel like they abuse me verbally. Since leaving work I have gained 60 to 70 pounds on top of already being grossly overweight. I weigh335 lbs on a 5'3" frame. That in itself is killing me. I am now diabetic with a sugar addiction I have a fib and have to be on medication for life for that. At the age of 64 I have just been diagnosed to be asthmatic and have to suck on and inhaler twice a day. I take so many pills in a day I could be a pharmacy. The constant pain of the stenosis in my neck and back are some days unbearable. With all the added weight my knees are beginning to take a toll on me. Honey we just have to keep in mind at all times that Jesus is the alpha and omega, he knows our every need and at just the right moment he will come through for us for the things we think we need. He does answer prayers and he continues to do modern day miracles. I do not go to church almost never but I have to say I have faith that God my saviour with help us both. Just keep praying or talking if you are not a good prayer and ask for forgiveness everyday and thank him for everything even if you don't know what you are thanking him for. Jesus is working in you or you would not have written. I will glady pray for you and can you please pray for me. Till we me again anonymous