Don't! Life is a sacred gift and what is difficult and seems insurmountable now, WILL get better. These are strange times. Count your blessings in life and thank God for them. There is something to be said for getting up each day and making an effort, do the washing up, make your bed, change your clothes... You will find this will help you feel worthwhile. Smile at a stranger when out exercising. A smile spreads and you will begin to feel more positive. Believe and trust in God he will never place more of a burden on you than you can cope with. I will say a prayer for you. Take care.