I lost my husband this year also and I can’t cry much. I know you’re hurting terribly and all the things that must be done in his absence has to be overwhelming.
I pray Jesus will comfort you with everything you need daily to make it through and that your grief will not be taken away but will be lighter with each passing moment. I pray God will show you His perfect peace for you and move you on to His next job for you in this life as you continue to walk toward Him and His purpose now for you. It’s all going to be different but prayerfully fulfilling too.
Cry as you must as often as you must and don’t feel guilty over it either. Tears are a cleansing factor in our lives and you will soon be released to a brighter day. I can’t give you an exact time of feeling better because it’s different for everyone but I do know there will be a day when you can get through it without crying and you will actually smile.
You will remember the good times and also the struggles and be able to help someone else through a time like you’re in now.
BE at peace as it comes.

Thank you all for praying. I am still in a place of not much peace or seeing God’s answers for my life and what He has planned but getting through each and every day.