I pray for GOD's will in my life. I guess I am afraid of uncertainity of my destiny.... I want to be in a healthy relationship with every one that I come in contact with on a daily basis and in my home life. I feel like I have let everyone down including my kids. Sometimes I dont feel like I know who I am anymore and that I am just going through the motions of my life with no meaning. I need prayer to get it all back and the joy in my life. I don't hardly laugh anymore and I feel like the devil has robbed me of my joy...... I want to be happy again and not sure how to go about all of it. I'm not sure if my realtionship that I am in is a helathy one anymore. I feel like we are just roommates and not in a long term relationship. I do not want to feel settled...... Remember me please. I struggle and do not want to have to worry about tomorrow and I do.