no one can fill me , no one can understand the pain, and I must stay in the fight lookin at the hand of the Lord. They want me hurt and distrant and thrown out, and some who call me friend do not want to hear, at this time I have to go by myself to the place where the Lord wants me and see him and listen to him and trust him, and I am willing to go with him. please pray for me that I faint not in this struggle while in the fire, I want to cry no more but stand firm and just let go so the Lord can take me where he want me to go . This is not easy and must be done with total trust and faith, that I am now tested. pray for me that I will no take my eyes off of him and not fear I know the Lord is good but I must go into this fire.