Once again, I am suffering and this time it will affect my children's lives. Please don't let their lives be ruined by the lessons that you need me to learn. Please give me strength, please give me knowledge and PLEASE help me to do what is right for them and what is your will. Help me have faith that what I am going through is part of your divine plan for my life. I'm scared and I come before you on bended knee asking for your help.