Please pray to God that my anxiety goes away. I always feel like something bad is going to happen or I did something wrong even though I haven't. Besides my addiction. I always feel guilty and ashamed about that. I wasn't allowed to express my tears growing up because my parents would get angry or annoyed and I would have to go away by myself and cry or be upset. I have been suppressing my emotions my whole life (the "bad" ones), and I believe that that is part of the reason I have the addiction I do. My mother is suspecting me of using and it makes me feel bad but what was I supposed to to with this anger and sadness if I wasn't allowed to express it? I could not make it magically disappear. I don't know why I was put into that family. No one is sensitive like me. Why would God put me into a family that doesn't care about each other? Why would God put me in a family that isn't sensitive? I really feel like I was put into the wrong family.